Kubonismo©

I’m 31 years old I tell myself, i should already be in the desert finding myself.. Which I was and I did, not exactly but did find out the path to self discovery. A feeling not of fear but hastiness, a foreboding feeling that my time here is short and I should be doing everything I can to make a difference for my loved ones and for all the beings in the universe.

But how can one start on the path of service when your beloved feels that he/she has been taken for granted, being left out, not loved? It’s a very thin line you have to walk on.. One where you give yourself, your all to the service of humanity but lose and deny your beloved her/his share, or spend blissful ignonimity in Lethe-like abandon in the arms of your beloved ignoring the suffering of the universe.

Could this be the reason why Siddharta left his Palace, wife and kids to be a renunciate? Why the Carpenter Nazarene have spent life in single blessedness… I’ve heard about this and some statisticians have actually correlated a persons productivity and ingenuity in reciprocal to his love life. Great minds fall when all consuming love is realized. Poets lose their touch… The muse leaves in the afterglow and sometimes never returns. Sometimes the pain and longing is necessary.

My choice in this matter… I choose service. Not because I am taking my beloved for granted, but because true love waits, but does not wait forever. True love supports, true love trusts in his/her beloved. Reflect on this.

And I do this not because I relish the pain of being separated from my beloved, But hoping in the future to share the fruits of my labor and to bring forth a better world to share in. Please be patient with me, I love you with all my heart, but remember that True Love is not selfish. Service means Sacrifice.

I’m currently reading for the third time:
The War with Earth by Dave Grossman & Leo Frankowski
This book is part of my personal collection.

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