Kubonismo©

It hurts me… this pain that I feel inside, the longing that I feel. .is so strong…

It drives me crazy… I have always had this… this feeling before… the point where it is more than just jealousy… I have nurtured this negative feeling and it has come back to me now… again… Like an old friend, it knows how to push the right buttons and anger grows… doubt… hatred.. loneliness… fear… Why?

The person that I cared for has not changed… nor does the situation. What is wrong is what’s inside me. This destructive feeling.. This child that I have fed for so long… will need to grow up and stop its tantrums. You will not do this to me now. This child has hurt the ones I cared for by my reactions to the negative feelings that I felt. This child has driven me to paranoia long enough, but never more.
The third eye, helps us see ourselves in the third person, the detached mind, the impartial observer, the third eye gives us the point of view to clearly see what eludes us. It is hard sometimes to see the mountain when you are standing on it.

If all this is confuses you… do not worry.. unless you are in the situation I have just mentioned, then all of this may seem absurd… But trust me it all works out fine.

P.S.: By being able to look at yourself impartially as a separate being, you can analyze what emotions are being brought about, why those emotions are there, what’s causing them, realizing that the beloved has not caused the hurt but the message that they have imparted seems to have done so. Still more, if you reflect upon it, then you realize that the message cannot be the problem… It is the receiver who must change, for the receiver seems to be who is greatly effected by the message.. which were merely words… nothing more. The beloved has not changed, they have not done the wrongdoing. It is merely the illusion built up by not reflecting upon the message. I hope this helps.

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